Palm Springs

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Today was hard. This year has been hard. Last year was hard. But today I tried. I got up, got dressed, went to a photography workshop hoping to feel uplifted and energized about creating and I left feeling defeated. Like I’ve fallen so far behind I should just walk. I’m tired. My mind plays tricks on me constantly. I know I’m rambling but I just want to say. Motherhood is wonderful magical thing but it’s difficult so very difficult. Postpartum depression can really suck you dry. I just turned 6 years sober and if I’ve learned anything... I’m going to take each moment . Brushing my teeth, eating dinner, put the baby to bed. Each small moment at a time and keep pushing toward the next moment until hopefully I’ve walked far enough out of this darkness to feel like myself again. My new self. Mother & artist

Jill Hannes